is really tipsy right now and janet is upset with me. I'm getting annoyed with howi'm treated.I'm tired of being the prblem. I just want to be the supportive one.God forbid i happen to get fired and she starts to get more depressive..

I've decided that i need to get things straightened out up here. I have things to work on with myself and my life which means that i can't keep distracting myself. Under this thought i've decided to go off the radar for alittle bit and get my life right.

This is no one's fault and no one is to blame either, i've actually been considering this for a few weeks now and finally decided the time is right. With winter comming and there is already snow out where I am that which means my family won't be driving down to philly much at all really and i have to just let some things go before i really want to be down again.

Know that you are all my friends and i love you dearly, yes some more than others but the important part is that you are all dear in my life and that i won't be gone for long. For any real contact with me besides noticing me on sites will be the phone if anyone misses me at some point. The number is 610-916-6136 just ask for chuck i should be home.

Love forever,

Chuck

If i've ever been mean or hurtful i am TRUELY SORRY. All i ask is that you can find it in your heart to forgive me in some way and know i don't mean to do it. For once i am forced to blame my ADHD due to the fact that i don't even realize i'm being mean/hurtful when i say things.

So again i am really sorry...

so if it was important than send it again.

So you asked the questions i'll give the answers.

1. What is your ultimate sexual fantasy? I really don't have an ultimate.

2. What is your favorite kind of candy? 3 musketeers

3. What do you anticipate for the rest of your life? Living. I haven't made any goals cause i'm a teenage boy just out of high school.I just want new experiences.

4. Why, when you were with Steph, did you talk about her constantly on your Xanga, and send letters to her, but you don't do the same for me? First off i didn't write her letters, second off I didn't see her as much so xanga was the only way off really getting messages back and forth. And last but not least the reason why i post so much about her was to showcase the fact that she was better whan what people were saying. I don't need to do that with you cause my friends all like you except for jay but jay is an asshole with no feelings.

5. Why are you with me? In my defense i have been temporarily insane for the past year+ of going out with you lol But an ever more simple answer is. I LIKE YOU.

Yes i like Pina Coladas and getting caught in the rain. and that song has more meaning to me than people think.

Well there should be something interesting involving my life and work in this first post but...I decided that you the reader shall get the choice of my posts. Ask a question and than the next post shall refer to that question. And the only catch is that i get to choose which question to post about.